The last time I had sex with a straight man was back in high school — that is, the last time before I became the porn star “Gus Mattox.” The straight “man” — just a teenager like me, actually — was my cousin, a year older than me, a soccer star and very obliging when it came to letting me suck his dick.
I’d be passing the green bean casserole at Thanksgiving and he’d give me that look. A thrill would shoot through me. The look meant that after dinner I should follow him into his bedroom and shut the door. He’d pop in an 8-track, and his choice of music would clue me in to how the rest of the lazy, sleepy Thanksgiving afternoon would go.
If he picked Bread’s Greatest Hits, it meant he was feeling generous and might just give me a mercy grope through my jeans as I sucked him off. Led Zeppelin? I was on my own. I never minded, though: he had a really big dick and even back then I was a fellatio-phile.
In the years since then, my cousin has packed on about 75 pounds and drives around with a gun rack in his pickup. If we ran into each other again, I doubt we’d pick up where we left off. For him, our Thanksgiving sessions were merely a youthful indiscretion, a gay thing that’s behind him now. He probably doesn’t even think of it as a “gay experience.” I imagine this sort of teenage fooling around must be part of a lot of straight men’s resumes, a part they conveniently forget — or ignore.
So why then are so many straight guys in gay porn? I’m talking about men I’ve had sex with in front of the camera, men who’ve shown me pictures of wives and kids right before a take!
I remember one time I was in a five-way for some film, and two of the guys were definitely heterosexual. I know this because the director had to have straight porn playing on a monitor off camera, just for them.
One guy was a total pig. He’d fuck anything that stood still long enough for him to climb on. He wasn’t particularly attractive, but LaToya Jackson could have used the thing between his legs as one of her snake props.
The other guy was very handsome. He was in terrific shape and had a nice, above-average-size willy and a beautiful rounded ass. He wasn’t some lean and hungry kid just off the bus from Oklahoma. He looked to be around 30 and seemed fairly intelligent.
I kept wondering, as we went into the shoot, what this guy was doing here. Did he just wander in off the street unwittingly? Did he not realize that when you do a porn flick, it stays a secret for about as long as it takes to get a taxi afterwards?
Or did he just not care about his buds and girlfriends finding out — as they inevitably would? This film wasn’t an amateur loop, but part of a DVD release that would be marketed by a major gay studio. Honestly, are there that many women so titillated by the thought of two men together that it wouldn’t be a gamble?
All of these silent questions made my work with him especially exciting. It wasn’t just that sucking his cock was fun — though, boy, it was! — I got off thinking he was just a wee bit humiliated over the whole thing! I made sure he looked into my eyes as I went down on him. I even winked
My questions persisted, though, and afterwards, I pumped Chi Chi LaRue, the well-loved porn director. She — [of course, Chi Chi, who pronounces her name "She She," is a man, tender Nightcharm reader -- Ed.] — answered, “Money, honey. There’s no money in straight porn for the guys.”
Hmm. While it’s true that the major money-makers in straight porn are all (usually ravishing) women, the money is not all that hot in gay porn either. Finally, even Chi Chi had to exclaim, “Haven’t a clue, darling.” And she hadn’t — even after 16 years in the business.
Now we all know some things simply feel good — regardless of sexual orientation. Every woman I know says guys eventually want a finger stuck up their butts. Fucking and getting fucked — well, you can’t beat it. That part I get. But on camera? When you’re having gay sex but are not a gay guy?
I’m convinced there’s something bigger and more pervasive going on. For example, I’m as big a cock-whore as the next guy. I’m forever glancing over to the next urinal to see what’s on display. But why do straight guys do the very same sneak and peek? Another thing, of all my friends, it’s the hetero guys who are the most curious about my porn work. And what’s their number-one burning question, the question they all get around to asking?
“So, you must have a really big dick, huh?”
“Why … yes I do,” I say with that special twinkle in the eye that always wrecks mischief with straight guys.
That question, though! Not how much money I make. Not the most number of guys I’ve had sex with at one time. Nope, they want to know if I’m a member in good standing of the Big Dick Club.
I’m telling you! Guys — all guys, gay or straight — are just such size queens!
One straight buddy, in particular, surprised me. He’s a successful actor and you’d recognize him as one-half of the sexiest gay couple on TV. (My stock shot way up when he kissed me on the mouth in the West Hollywood Starbucks!) Men across America have jacked off to him and he wants to know if I have a big dick! Go figure.
So the next time I see the guy I worked with who has three kids by three different women … or the married guy whose straight brother is thinking about getting into the business …. or that cute guy who watched as his dick pumped my mouth … I’m going to sit them down and get the skinny on all this. What’s the big allure of doing gay porn, guys?
My hunch is they won’t know any more than I do.
Tom Judson, who appears this spring in Big Rig under his nom de porn “Gus Mattox,” is a a writer, composer, and that rarest of celebrities, a beautiful man with a beautiful mind. Tom recently took part in our
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Gus will you be my cusin?
Cock is Cock
It has never bothered me if that which I was offered or that which I managed to secure, was gay or straight. Quality cock is my standard. From the showers in high school to the men’s rooms in todays upscale resturants I am always on the look-out for quality cock. So it does not suprise me that porn directors look for the same thing. It had happened years ago in straight porn when many of the beauties had no problem with the lez sequences. It will probably be the same with those wonderful cocks “crossing-over” for the screen time in gay porn.
Straight — this must be straight as in “straight as the yellow brick road”, straight.
If you get enough responses to warrant it, I’d love to read a follow up essay on this.
you are right tom. most guys love anything that feels good or titillating to them. i’ve had tons of straight guys aware that i’m checking out their bods ( i mean butts )and while they may be scared to pursue anything, do do seem to enjoy being admired—-and sometimes amazed at their own enjoyment!!
How nice to discover that Gus Mattox writes so well, too, on top of the rest!
I’m a homo who really doesn’t know squat about Hollywood so will someone tell me who the sexiest gay couple on TV is?
Right, CK, who is the “sexiest couple on TV?” Well, there are not that many choices, are there? I guess we could consider Will and Jack a gay “couple” from Will & Grace, but they are just a couple of friends. There is the male couple on Queer as Folk, never liked the show so don’t know their names, but I’m thinking about the young blond boy and his arrogant, good-looking older boyfriend. They would qualify as “sexy.” There are also the reality shows, like the Amazing Race, where teams have sometimes been gay boyfriends who are out about it. For sure it’s no one from “Queer Eye.” Only the hair guy on that show gives me any kind of buzz.
hey , do straight guys like eating cum directly as it is coming out of the dick. many guys i know to b straight like to make other guys eat their semen and somtimes even piss on them. but do they themselves like getting the same thing on them?
Because it’s as elegant as a chardonnay across the lips of a cut crystal decanter and raw as a hot summer’s drive-in movie backseat hump. Real men are not defined or codified by statutes and phylogenetics, they are as individual as any DNA, fingerprint, or iris of the eye forensics has thus far identified. Seemingly no one knows what pheromone can engage a man’s “rut” and does it emerge from within or is it triggered from without; and at anytime a firestorm can breakout. Because it feels good, thats only the tip of the iceberg. The Marine didn’t kiss me till I rimmed him - the cop on duty licked his fluid from my cheek before plunging his tongue into my mouth - and both kept their promise to come back and try my other kama sutra specials, each more than once. And many have told me their experience created new talents and pleasures in their arsenal of erotics. JBM
Straight men in gay porn. Interesting…
Personally, I believe that gay and straight do not exist. We are all sexual beings that enjoy sex. You can try and go with the theory that a hole is a hole but at some point you look down and realise that you are fucking a guy.
But, that’s ok. It feels good and I am being paid.
This doesn’t mention anything about straight bottoms. Perhaps they are a thing of the past. I’m terrible with names, real or otherwise, but one I recall used the screen surname of Allen.
I know, I know. How straight can you be and be a bottom in porn? But after all, how straight can you be and be a top in gay porn? Does it make a difference? And really, some straight men know they have a prostate and know how to use it.
I talked to a few in my very brief career in Hollywood, and I gather, the thing is, if you are a straight bottom, you don’t have to get it up for most shots, and your money shot can be coax with strategically placed off-camera straight porn. The magic of video can combine the real action rear shots with your front shots so that it looks like you are really getting off to bottoming.
Why? Well, at least in those days, not only was there not much money in straight porn for men, but also there were not many roles for really good looking men. You wanted the straight viewer to think the man was not much competition. If that slob can do her, I would have a chance to do her. And even today. If you look at the one or two really famous straight male porn stars, well, they just aren’t body beautiful.
Que hombres tan sexy, estan guapisimos y tienen cuerpos deliciosos, me dan ganas de chuparles todo
naaah fink he mite av went thru one of them confusin stages either that or hes in denial. snds like a gr8 cousin tho :p x
I can admit that the thought of having oral sex with a cousin of mine does turn me OFF but on the other hand I have never felt greater appeal than that of a straight man. I may have only left high school a mere 2-3 years ago but when a man comes to me and swings his cock in my face while his girlfriend watches out of the corner of her eye, trying not to enjoy it I am often obliged to take that cock at least in my hand if not in my mouth.
The thought of doing it for a living… may perhaps be a little too much but I am a great fan of Tom Judson’s and would love to see the fact that these men are straight made more obvious rather than less.